I'll Let You

The sun sets

And our eyes met

I knew you wanted me

But what did I want from you

A few libations

And soon the vibrations of my body which I couldn’t stop

What will happen when I wake up

When I realize what we did

In the first round

I knocked you down

Scared of myself

I felt like somebody else

You left me be

And I thought I was free

When I realized

You brought out the

Secret me

Everything slowed down

And what I know now

Is I want to lose

Next time I’ll let you 

Distance

Dawn is breaking

And I hear you making, us breakfast

But do you know I’m crying

That I feel like I’m dying

Drowning in your love

A love I’m not sure I deserve

Cuz I once loved you

But I think it’s through

I don’t want to be here anymore

You’re on the other side of that door

But in this house I feel alone

Yet to you my feelings are unknown

Can you hear it in my voice

Can you see it in my eyes

Through our many tries I’m ready to break down

I’m ready to skip town

I don’t really want to see you for a while

Even if it only a single mile

I want to distance myself

From you…

No Longer You

Can you heart it

The tremble in my voice

Telling you I love you

I had no choice

You’re my best friend

You’re my brother

But no longer can I be your lover

We were one and the same

Playing each other’s game

But I’m tired of slowing myself down

Stop staring at me

Stop glaring at me like that

It won’t change the fact

I love you I do

But it’s almost time

I think we’re through

For you there’s only me

But for me it’s no longer you

No Longer You

Can you hear it

The tremble in my voice

Telling you I love you

I had no choice

You’re my best friend

You’re my brother

But no longer can I be your lover

We were one and the same

Playing each other’s game

But I’m tired of slowing myself down

Stop staring at me

Stop glaring at me like that

It won’t change the fact

I love you I do

But it’s almost time

I think we’re through

For you there’s only me

But for me it’s no longer you

Sunday Morning

Sunday morning my heart is warning me

Don’t go your face will let everyone know

What’s on your mind

I’m tired I’m sleepy

Cranky and angry

Why do I do this to myself

Strike me by lightning I shouldn’t be here

Praising the Lord

While sinful thoughts appear

Holding my boyfriend’s hand

But there’s only one person I can look at

And it’s him… 

Cruel Heart

How cruel the heart can be

When it’s the one governing me

It tells me I’m wrong yet right

I’m almost always in a fight with it

My heart and my head

Will you please get along

My thoughts and feelings

Won’t let go

A fight within myself

And I’m reaching out for help

But everyone’s answers are not for me

Which is making it clearer who I want to be

I’m not who you think

I’m not who I say

I’m just a girl who wants to play

Unrest

Dawn treading at the edge of my mind

Fear creeping in from behind... me

I can’t see anything there

All I can feel is someone's death stare

Peace does not come for thine weary

Nor does it seek out the strong

Peace is elusive and slippery at best

So where does that leave us of the rest?