Talk is Cheap

"Compared to my other exes you were my epic unforgettable love"
"I still remember your number because it was the first girl's I ever learned. I will NEVER forget it."

Years later after our chapter has ended
You opened this up and then pretended
To feel more than you do
To pretend there is something more between me and you
Why couldn't you stay gone
I thought I had moved on
But your kiss opened up old wounds
And you knew exactly how to make me swoon, over you
You built me up
Then tore me down
You filled my mind
Confused my heart
Simply to get ahold of my body again?
Shame on you
I will cry few tears
Because over the years
I've built up so many scars
A few more scratches will do little harm...


I'm so disappointed in you. You were the good one, the one that never hurt me. We broke it off due to circumstance and here I thought this was our second chance. But the good boy, became a bad man. I miss 14 year old you I loved him so deeply... You were my Epic Love story, my Romeo, why did you have to go and Benedict Arnold it....

Different Man Same Result

Torrid Affair
Ending in despair
Lonely Blog
Let me log, onto you
And tell you all I've been through
A man walked back into my life
In but a single stride
Waves of lust
Misused trust
Sex sells and talk is cheap
I took a chance a made a leap
But my body was his only desire
With in me he lit a burning fire
He revived my deaden heart
Only to rip it apart
Caught in my delusions
All the emotions were simply illusions
To strip me of my walls
Or maybe simply my clothes
Why did I expect a different result
But to men I'm simply a body
A little too pudgy but not to shoddy
Big boobs tight ass
This is what I'm seen as
I'm not an ugly duckling
But all I'm good for is some fucking....

 

I must be doing something wrong to get mistreated every time.

Fading

It’s cold so cold as I run to my car

I thought I’d be warm in your home

But you didn’t come to the door

I don’t see your car but I know you’re not far

I wish I could tell you what you want to hear

And I know I’m just fulfilling your greatest fears

But I need to tell you I need to say

All the things on my mind

And I wish I could turn back the hands of time

To start all over, do it better

Make a future for you and me

But it’s not in the cards

It’s not in my heart

WE are slowly dying and

ME I’ve come to terms with that

You need to open your eyes

I don’t want to anymore so,

Let’s live today like it’s our last

And pretend our loves not fading fast

Enjoy today hope for tomorrow

For once it ends let’s not be filled with sorrow

Because I loved you

You loved me

But baby it’s time to be free

Stepping Down

Tears oh tears rolling down my face

Wiping away all traces of the kisses left there

My steps slowly echoing as I walk down the stairs

Too many times I’ve hesitated and ran right back into your arms

This time I will run right into harm

I’m saying goodbye to the old me

Not listening to what you told me

But following my feet carrying me away

I’m going down these steps

Leaving the pedestal you put us on

I have no interest in being who you want me to be

I only want what seems to be REAL

Not a stretch of faith

Not a place where I can only hate, you

Hate you for making me unhappy

I know this is all to sappy

But I gotta live for me

I wanna live to be free

No rules only guidelines

Since you are so big on Jesus

Let me tell you a few of his words

Matthew 9:13 “I have not come to call the righteous, but sinners.”

Fire

The wind blowing outside my window

Holds the slightest traces of embers

The scent of smoke is slowly leaving the air

The cold is making my skin tingle

But I can barely feel anything anymore

Footsteps echoing behind me as I move from this place

I’ll make sure not to leave a trace

Fire, fire burning down my memories

Consuming all things that remind me of you

I never told but I hated those trinkets

Not my style you weren’t thinking of me

Rise up rise flames of amnesia

Help me forget this pain deep within my heart

Help me ease and help me restart

Fire, fire how you burn

All you’ve taught and all I’ve learned

Quick Start

Before anyone I know sees these posts and starts bugging me about is this really going on in your life?! Shinanigans These poems may be true at some point, but most of them are exaggerations and dramatizations of what's really going on with me, so please if ya don't know what's real and what's not call me and ask me don't assume its all real and start gossiping about something you're not sure of

No Good Man

He’s a no good man

He’s gonna break my heart

I know it all too well

But I couldn’t help myself

He’s a no good man

Holding me in his gaze

Knowing I can’t escape

From this feeling in my heart

He’s a no good man

I see the passion in his eyes

And soon I realize

He’s a no good man

I want this man

Want him to myself

To me and on one else

He’s a no good man

I want him to look at me with those eyes

The ones I once denied

He’s a no good man

And I’m a naïve selfish girl…